Where soul meets body

I'm really bored with my life right now. I'm grounded and my mother changed the password for my facebook so I pretty much have no contact with anyone except through work and AIM(which I hate). Plus I have a cold which I hate because whenever I was sick when I was young all I did was lay in bed and eat soup, but now laying in bed and eating and getting fat just doesn't sound as comforting as it used to. So I'm gonna try and wear myself out with lots of exercise so I can get to sleep early tonight. The easiest way to burn calories is sleeping! Tomorrow is Friday and I have tonsss of school work to do and then I have work. The good thing about work tomorrow is that the guy I like will be there and besides me and him I don't think any other young people are working so it'll be just us! I'm pretty excited about that, I need to just get over my nerves and talk to him. Easier said then done. But I'm gonna try really hard. Hopefully he'll be chillin. I need to go workout but before I do I'll post a little thinspo for you guys/girls.

Much Love & Stay Strong

I feel so close, and yet I am so far

Today I'm starting my 2 day fast. I would try a 3 day fast but I've never done one before so I just want to test it out. I'm trying new methods and whatnot just to see what my body's limits are. I'm hoping to drop 3 lbs from this one, I'm pretty excited. It's only 9:03 AM and so far I'm on my 2 bottle of water and I had a cup of coffee. I'm going to avoid my precious Monster Energy drinks and just stick to coffee for a while. Bleh I wish I could work out right now but I feel sick and my sister is home, I absolutely hate working out in front of people. It feels like they're constantly judging me and staring at me and thinking there's something wrong. If I was pretty enough I think I'd want to be a model or actress. I work best under pressure and those jobs definitley bring on the pressure. But there is no way in Hell I would ever be pretty enough to do it. But I can say, one day I will be thin enough :D Today when I woke up to make some coffee I saw a plate full of chocolate chip cookies, my sister put them out so I could have a few for breakfast and I just felt so powerful when they were right there in front of me but I chose to have water instead. I didn't even want one. It's not worth it to have a few seconds of guilty pleasure but forever have muffin tops. I'd rather be pretty than happy.
So to get through I like to listen to thinspirtational songs. They honestly really work and keep me on track. So I'll make a list of some great songs to thinspire you little kiddies <3>www.imeem.com

1) Me and Mia - Ted Leo & the Pharmascists
2) World War Me- From First To Last
3) Anorexic Beauty - Pulp
4) Failure by Designer Jeans - From First To Last
5) Skinny - Filter
6) Paper Bag - Fiona Apple
7) Lua- Bright Eyes
8) Creep - Radiohead
9) Anas Song - Silverchair
10) Waltz Moore - From First To Last
11) Binger and Purge- Lunachicks
12) So Rich So Pretty - Mickey Avalon
13) Every Day Is Struggle - Senses Fail
14) Distant Voices - Bush

Hope this list helps you a little. Stay strong skinnies<3