i have nothing to do

my arms feel like they're hollow. i just had two pieces of toast that i regret. bleh nothing else until dinner then nothing after that. i am not looking forward to thanksgiving where mounds of mashed potatoes and apple pie will be shoved down my throat. the whole holiday is sickening. i'm not even excited about christmas, which is my favorite holiday. i'm not excited about anything anymore. i used to be a passionate person but that's just not me anymore. wish it was.